November 30th, 2005 at 11:34 pm
(Artistic, Fannish)
I took a break from bamboo today, figuring I ought to start out right: with calligraphy. So I’m doing the first lesson in the book: Autumn.
When I can copy it perfectly from memory, I get to draw a banana leaf that I can’t draw- since my sketching ability is nil. But I’ll do it anyway. Or attempt to do it. Or something. I like autumn better as I did it for 45 minutes, two pieces of paper and I can do it quite decently, if I do say so myself.
Dave’s new album came yesterday. It’s nice but it’s no White Ladder. The tracks I like, roughly in order are: Now and Always, Nos Da Cariad, From Here You Can Almost See the Sea, Lately, Ain’t No Love. I wonder if it’ll grow on me as a new day at midnight did. And the lyrics are up on the fanlisting, in case anyone’s interested.
November 29th, 2005 at 12:53 pm
(Artistic, Interstitial Cystitis)
I got some ink painting supplies yesterday- Books, paper, ink, ink stone, brushes- that sort of thing. Already I see that there are two different methods to approach this: Begin with the calligraphy or begin with the basic strokes. I decided to try the brushes out doing the Bamboo stroke first. I already hate the brushes I chose. They’re too soft. I can’t control them. I think they’re brushes for washes and not any sort of drawing at all. That’s OK. I just ordered some harder ones online. I am still going to practice with these infuriating brushes- because they’re all I have right now. And I need the practice.
I’ve done so much bamboo, that everything is starting to look a little grassy. Bamboo, bamboo, bamboo. And it’s not like my bamboo is all that hot either but then again, it was my first go. Can’t expect to be perfect at the first go. Well, not me, anyway. But I’m getting good at grinding ink and the last set of bamboo canes I tried don’t suck too much. It looks better when it dries.
Thurien destroyed my favourite coffee cup yesterday afternoon. It was on the counter when I went to the bathroom. When I came back, it was in pieces on the floor and he was looking far too innocent not to have been the culprit. I was very upset: This has not been a good week for me. The other day I had bad side-effects from my Darvocet and couldn’t walk three steps without falling flat on my ass. I slept on the bathroom floor for about 3 hours, woke up, tried to get a glass of water, fell. I went back to sleep, woke, went to see Eloric, not 10 feet away in the Gothic Room, fell. I crawled back to the bathroom and slept some more. This is insane. Then I accidentally erased all of the listed countries on the Incense fanlisting and had to re-add them by hand because I couldn’t figure out how to do a My-SQL Dump and I didn’t want to delete all of the members altogether.
Went to the dentist today even though I’m in the middle of a flare. I just had to go so he’d leave me alone for a while. I had to get the permanent crown put on the tooth he ground down in October. He thought he was going to do a filling but I told him that I could not be injected today as I did not want the flare to get worse (and Darvocet is not really cutting it today but at least I’m not staggering around like I’m on a binge or something). He nearly fainted at my gums. He’d forgotten about Elmiron. I hate Elmiron. Elmiron is bunk. I hear that there are lucky people out there who actually respond to this crap. Wish I were one of them.
November 26th, 2005 at 3:32 pm
(NaNo, 2005)
Was there any doubt? No- don’t answer that. :*lol*
Lookie what I get: 
November 26th, 2005 at 3:43 am
(Better Living Through Chemistry, Interstitial Cystitis)
I took a break on the NaNo yesterday and today, well, everyone will forgive me for not writing much- I’ve been doped up all day with the flare from hell. I think it’s my BC but I’m not sure. I am supposed to make an appointment with the PA soon to discuss it but I am tired of going to the doctor. It seems like all I ever do is go to the doctor and piss in a cup or strip or whatever. I really wish I could figure out how to go less but I have no clue except for refusing to go… which I cannot do because if I don’t go, I may be in pain forever, instead of 2 weeks a month. OK. All most all month this month but still…
I found a dead bird by my computer yesterday. I was at a loss as to where it came from until I found out that the door to the garage was open and saw that Thurien had gotten out there and well… after that it wasn’t too hard to figure out.
November 23rd, 2005 at 10:20 pm
(NaNo, 2005, Rants)
I am sooo glad that Eloric’s stepmother hasn’t called to invite us to their Thanksgiving… whenever that may be. They can never seem to celebrate Thanksgiving or Xmas on their scheduled days. I really don’t want to spend any time with his family… ever again really, since they’re all just a bunch of back-stabbing twunts. Ok. MOST of them are. And I don’t need to be around people like that.
I don’t like giving those people ammo other than by my non-presence. They can gab all they want about how I never show up for family functions but I hate to show up, be civil and perhaps read a book, and then have the twunts make up new and exciting ways that I have somehow offended them. I never deliberately do anything to insult them, I swear I don’t. It’s like they want to be insulted so they can talk and feel important. They are so insecure, they need to insult me and Eloric to make themselves feel better and to have some manner of famblee cohesiveness. Granted it’s mostly his siblings who do that but his mother… don’t get me started. If I talk about how much of a bint she is, I’ll write a 2,000 word entry, thereby wasting the words I could have used in writing my NaNo.
Oh, and I’m at 46,327 words. *woot!*
November 21st, 2005 at 10:45 pm
(NaNo, 2005, Thoughts)
I’m working on a new layout for the site. I’m hoping it will motivate (as well as remind XD ) me to get cracking and take up Sumi-e. I’m really anxious to try it to see how much I do or do not suck at it. This layout is quite different from the others as I’m leaving off pimping the cliques that need new scripts to run :X and I’ve added a “Now Reading” bit to the sidebar, which is powered by the way cool plugin Now Reading. I sort of miss the little random joined fanlistings bit that you could do with FanBase but the hacking that went with it was so not fun, I don’t miss it that much. I need to re-do my pretty little buttons down there near the bottom but that’ll have to wait.
I’ve been in an absolutely horrid mood for the last few days. I don’t know if it’s the Alesse finally catching up with me; if it’s IC; or if it’s Late-Stage NaNo stress. I just want to build a tall stone tower in the middle of a thorny wood and not let anyone near me for 2 weeks. I get pissed on the days Eloric words if mother comes over and that’s not normal for me. I seem to be needing a lot more alone time lately and I get rather violent if it’s interrupted.
Well, I’ve been promised a walk or a car ride tonight, so I’m going to go.
Oh, and I suck at NaNo today: 42,079
November 20th, 2005 at 7:06 pm
(Artistic, Thoughts)
Just an intermission for me here between frantic typing on the NaNo.
I don’t know if I’ve mentioned it but I’ve been looking into taking up Sumi-e. Sumi-e is a type of Japanese ink painting where the subject is depicted in as few strokes as possible. Traditionally, only different concentrations of black ink is used. Sometimes it’s called “The Haiku of Painting”. Anyway, I am looking into beginning to learn it. It looks like something I could do. I’m not too artistically-inclined when it comes to drawing, painting, or sculpting. I’ve gotten relatively good at photography through sheer force of will and loads of practice. I think I might not suck at sumi-e if I were to peg away at it in the same way.
I’m fairly decent at depicting subjects with the minimum amount of strokes to suggest the subject and mood- I used to do miniature drawings back in school and they weren’t too terrible. *L* I am not too intimidated at the thought of Sumi-e as I think the haiku reference is apt- it’s forgiving to the beginner but to do it perfectly requires skill and practice. And, frankly, I need more meditative hobbies if I am going to come to terms with my IC. Poetry is great but I need still more things to occupy me until I can figure this thing out so I can work again. It is quite hard to want to hold down a job and feel like a productive member of society but to be unable to. It sucks and does a number on your self-esteem. Not to mention your pocket book. :/
Well, I have to crap (pretty much) some more words out today if I am going to win NaNo this year and get this :
November 19th, 2005 at 11:30 pm
(NaNo, 2005)
I was of no account today. I think I’m coming down with a cold. A nasty one. Ugh.
I may have written 1,000 words today. I’m not sure. All I know is that it was a fight all the way. I’ve been so tired that opening my eyes has been a real chore.
So, needless to say, I didn’t finish that final layout that I was going to code.
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