November 21st, 2007 at 3:51 pm
(Thoughts)
This year if I could just get rid of the holiday season, I would. I have realised that as we draw closer and closer to that “happy time of the year” that I am not going to be able to get through it gracefully. If I get through it at all, it will be with a lot of help from Eloric and a large bottle of poppy tincture. *Note to self: Buy large bottle of poppy tincture* A lot of stuff has been unearthing itself lately, stuff I didn’t realise depressed me or angered me until it attacked me at 2am several days ago. I feel stupid and heartless for having some of this stuff bother me, since some of it is pretty damned irrational.
My priest friend’s father died two weeks ago and she gave vent to some of the things that were bothering her in game several days ago and it occurred to me that I too was pissed about these things. Granted, she has things much worse than I had them, for there is much, much more going on in her life but the anger was distressingly similar. We are both incensed at our mothers for not grieving more. As I said, on my part this is terribly irrational as I know that all people grieve differently, display grief differently, and so forth. However, in my case, though I know it is wonderfully stupid to hold this anger against my mother for appearing more unaffected by father’s death than I would like, but I’m pissed anyway. I know it is… what is the word… not compassionate? Unfeeling? Incorrect, certainly. Besides, it’s not for me to hold up a standard of how mother should appear to handle her emotions. But I’m still angry and that bothers me.
read the rest of Hi. I’m Irrational Today
November 5th, 2007 at 6:13 pm
(Nano 2007)
I’ve decided to stop beating myself over Nanowrimo and to just be happy that I can write at all. If I win, hey, but I’m not going to stress over it.
November 5th, 2007 at 2:44 am
(I was bored)
Yanno, I just realised that by updating WP I lost my blogroll. I’ve been reading up on this and apparently they changed the tag for displaying links/blogrolls/etc. I’m going to fix it… once I figure out how to do it, that is. So I’m still linking everyone, it’s just not showing up at the moment.
November 4th, 2007 at 7:11 pm
(Nano 2007, WoW)
Been sick and exhausted all weekend and haven’t written anything. I had gotten over my hatred of the novel there the other day but now I just plain don’t care if I “win” Nano this year or not. I suppose things will change again tomorrow while I am trying frantically to make up about 4,000 words.
In other news- A friend of ours got hacked in game this morning. The hacker wasn’t smart though cos for some reason, they took our friend’s toon through Dire Maul and replaced his Dragonspine Trophy with Royal Seal of Eldre’Theras. What? Why not just sell everything and delete the character? Did the hacker give the toon to their 12 year old sibling?
November 2nd, 2007 at 1:11 pm
(Nano 2007)
Well, I have started my nano novel. In fact while I write here about it, I am procrastinating because I’m sort of stuck. Things aren’t flowing nearly as well as last year- which ought to be plainly understandable- but then neither are they flowing as well as I had imagined. While I really like Gwi, Farmer Town is boring. So. Very. Boring. Because, hey, that is the nature of Farmer Town. I think I am just going to have to skip around the storyline to get my 50,000 words this year instead of writing along a continuum.
I don’t have much else to share other than we one-shotted Void Reaver last night, though he did enrage. I know- not big news for some people but dammit, it’s our first one-shot of that boss. I don’t really think we should have pulled it off but somehow we did.
I also need a good focus target macro. I suppose I’ll have to look up how to write one, since I’m stuck in the old coding for the most part.
Annd… I think I waved at Joseph the other night. I… it was dark and I couldn’t tell if it was him or not because he’s lost too much weight and it’s hard to see the “Must. Have. Brains!” look on his face in the dark. I feel dirty. Eloric had to use the cootie spray.
Word Count: 3,244 (not updated on site as am currently writing, sort of)
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