March 27th, 2009 at 2:03 pm
(News, WoW)
I don’t have much to post but I want to make an entry… so I shall.
Wednesday I started back on the versaclimber. I am a bit proud of myself that I could start at 12 1/2 minutes this year versus the 8 minutes that I started at last year. So I’ll be trying to do it every day until I hit around 22 minutes and then 5 days a week up to 30 minutes until it gets too cold to work out in the breezeway. Strangely, I had been looking forward to this all winter. I had found that it is a good way to meditate and to calm myself down when I started thinking too much about what happened to Dad.
I haven’t written anything since I patted myself on the back a while ago. I suppose I shouldn’t do that as it seems to kill my muse *heh*
Still deciding whether I want to switch my main or not. Another lesser-geared moonkin applied to the guild in the last day or so and was accepted. I know her and I’m not too keen on her as she had elbowed me out of my place in the group we run with- even if I were to take my resto shaman. I’ve lost out on going along with friends a few times now because they simply have to bring her and I’d be lying to say that it did not hurt my feelings. I cannot see myself healthfully competing with her, honestly. Confronted with someone of the same spec, I tend to go for blood. Since I don’t much like her at this point, this will be much worse. And as the class leader, I have the ability to make her life hard, if I choose- which is really no position for me to be in with the current way I feel toward her. Knowing myself as I do, this is not a healthful situation and it is setting me up to explode. Truly, it would be better if she were some random ‘kin, rather than someone I have a history with.
This is really pushing me towards my shaman. I dunno.
March 17th, 2009 at 12:55 pm
(Thoughts, WoW)
I finally visited Mother last week. It just all finally got to me and I felt so guilty that I went over there. The polite fiction that she never hurt me or acted like a jerk is again firmly in place. Time has worn the edges off the pain of it but still, there was another layer of disappointment added to the things that have built up ever since I realised (very long ago) that, while she can handle others’ feelings and shortcomings, she will never truly be able to handle or understand mine. Random Deity, this sounds sort of like what I was writing back in 2005 when Ida went apeshit on me. The more things change, the more they really stay the same, random proverb *choke*
Oh, and I just noticed that Dad’s birthday is tomorrow. Good mood gone.
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March 7th, 2009 at 5:59 pm
(News)
I will most likely keep this theme. I think it still needs tweaked for size. The link color and some background colors still need done but I am tired of working on it, so this will have to do for now.
I am using gimp now. It is hard to get used to after using Photoshop and Paintshop Pro for years.
This entry is fluff.
March 6th, 2009 at 2:46 pm
(Cats, Interstitial Cystitis, Rants, WoW)
Well, I have an idea of how I borked my fanlists so I am probably going to be keeping them. Probably. I just need to post on a forum and ask if there is any way I have borked the fanlists that I am unaware of.
It has been very spring-like here both yesterday and today. Sort of warmish and breezy but with all the cloud-cover of the last bit of winter. We went for a walk yesterday and I found out something from a friend of the family that at first pissed me off, then depressed me, and now I am just sort of depressed and going- well, I should have known it would be like this.
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March 3rd, 2009 at 4:46 pm
(Fannish, News)
I’m highly considering dumping all of my fanlists. It is work and mail I no longer care to have and borking my enthusiast upgrade today pretty well sealed the deal for me. Also is the fact that my hosting bill is more than I would like and such.
I am going to give it a week. If I still don’t care to unbungle the script, I’m going to post the lot in the forums and people can just have them. It’s not that I don’t care about the subjects anymore- the work involved to properly care for the lists has not been done since my father passed and I don’t care to resume it as putting in the work is not as important to me as it once was.
cats, 
