Goodbye Uncle

I just got up this morning and was sitting at the computer trying to take care of guild business when I heard the front door. The only person who lets themselves into my house without calling or knocking is mother, so I stood up from the computer, rolling my eyes because she always picks the most inconvenient times to come over to tell me stupid things I could care less about. Only this time it wasn’t so stupid and I actually pretty much cared.

Uncle Nile passed away.

Apparently he had decided at the first of the year that he was not going to take any more chemo treatments for his liver cancer and just do palliative care. Not that it was any of our business but he did not tell any of us that he had decided to pass over. I can’t say “give up”, having been in excruciating pain myself for nearly a year- there just comes a time when you’re worn down so much that you can’t fight any more- you don’t want to fight any more. He got to that point, I guess. I can’t say that I blame him- chemo is some nasty stuff. I almost wish that Dad had decided to take palliative care himself instead of chemo as I believe he would have had an easier death than being poisoned to death with those chemicals and then drugged up so he’d shut up. But he thought it was his best chance at living, so that’s what he tried. Anyway.
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Out with the Old

I suppose I could explain where I’ve been. That’s going to take a lot of room and I can’t say with confidence that I totally remember everything that has happened since the last entry here. There was just so much trainwreckery and asshattedness that I tried to block a lot of it out.

It’s Tuesday. The servers are down and I am supposed to be mopping the kitchen today. I don’t particularly want to mop the kitchen but someone has to and it’s best to get it done on a day like today and around all lingering health problems. I may dab at it on and off while I write here. I need to go make a bucket of mopwater though.
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