October 9th, 2008 at 3:56 pm
(News, WoW, Writing)
Yeah, yeah, grats me on 6 months ago. I’ve an Amani Bear mount.
Still plugging away at the weight loss. Got into some pants that were depression-causing three months ago.
That’s about it for the news. Nothing really going on here except that my apico failed and I had to have the tooth pulled last week. I’m sure everyone remembers Dental Disaster ‘08. So now I have this one tooth denture to wear until the wound heals. I don’t like wearing it. It makes food have less taste, tears up the roof of my mouth, and makes me talk oddly.
Uh, I might give NaNo a go this year but, naturally, the WoTLK expansion is slated to drop two weeks in. And let’s face it- I’m still enough of a case to prefer being entertained to creating entertainment for others.
September 19th, 2008 at 1:02 pm
(Uncategorized)
No, it’s not a typo 
For the past month I have been exercising and whatnot trying to feel better about myself. I think I must have gained 40lbs after Dad died due to comfort eating and just plain not caring about anything at all. I got to the point where I wouldn’t even look at myself in the mirror and used basic self care as a reward for not feeling utterly disgusted with myself- I mean when you don’t shave your legs because you haven’t “earned” it and other things in that vein it’s time to take stock and try not to be so deranged. So I started back on the versaclimber and am eating a modified version of the way I was eating before everything happened.
I can’t say how much weight I’ve lost because I don’t own a scale and I refuse to look at the scale at the doctor’s office when I go because I’d rather go by how I look and feel rather than by a number that someone else maintains is healthy for me. I was physically ill the two times I weighed what “they” say is healthy for me and I didn’t feel better until I was ten pounds above that, so damn the scales, we’re doing this MY way. Already I fit into pants that were quite tight long before it all went down, so that is quite a victory.
In the game I’ve started leveling my resto shammy, which is, if anyone remembers, my ORIGNAL shaman. I stopped leveling her about the time my druid went resto because I could not stand looking at another tauren female because I was so pissed that I was not allowed to respec to dps as the other healers in the guild were allowed to. I’ve maxed out her jewelcrafting and am starting on cooking. I hate sillithus. Uh… what else… I am a full time moonkin now and we’re doing bear runs in Zul’Aman. I still have to win the roll for one- what’s new?
Prosper goes to the vet in a hour because his asthma is acting up. I do wish they could give us something for him to have at home as it is very hard to arrange a ride into town with the other car being all “Not moving and you can’t make me!”
August 7th, 2008 at 5:33 am
(Friends, Thoughts, WoW)
I haven’t been around much, to be very honest. I’ve been ill with some mysterious sinus bug that has already outlived some monster horse pill action.
WoW has begun to bore me. The biggest kick I get out of it at the moment is the wondrous feeling I get “fleecing” people on a server that is not my home server. When I say “fleecing” what I really mean is taking advantage of the new laziness and ignorance people have. Now that dailies have brought in a great influx of gold, people won’t hesitate to spend 3 gold a pop on a stack of copper bars, 26+ gold on a stack of cooked deviate fish, or to pay an inflated price for agile boots they can go get for under 50 silver with little to no effort. This is good for someone who has no reserve of money on a new server but murder when you want to buy things like wool, which has been going upwards of 4.5 gold a stack. I cackle to myself every time I open my mail on my hunter. Our friend Fen laughs his butt off at me every time I tell him what I’ve been up to.
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June 20th, 2008 at 9:07 pm
(Uncategorized)
Sorry there Sigil- whilst moving everything to my new computer I sorta lost the note that I needed to renew my domain name. I still owe you e-mail. I’ll get off me bum soonish.
Guild-wise- I’m raiding but not as much. The GL finally said I could go moonkin but with the healing roster as it is, it’s a pretty hollow victory- if you can see where I’m going with that.
Ummm not much other news- just that I have my mother’s dim dog to take care of until Monday and er… very bad sinuses.
I’m boring this week, I know.
June 10th, 2008 at 10:48 pm
(Uncategorized)
It’s my birthday for another 14 minutes or so.
Felt about as expected today.
Will remain incommunicado for some time.
So much for being a year older.
May 24th, 2008 at 3:05 am
(Grieving, WoW)
So um. The guild blew up again, only this time I was in the middle of it. I don’t want to rehash something I’ve hashed far too much but let us suffice it to say again- I will not be treated poorly in order for asshats to progress. We’ve had far too many people crapping on each other, the buck stopped with me, and I’m no longer raiding. Will I raid again? Right now it’s a big fat NO. As far as I’m concerned, several people can take their Black Temple and their Archimonde and their attitudes and shove them up their arses sideways. Some seemed to think Eloric and I were kidding when we made our post that included people’s poor attitudes until it happened in voice chat. Just because it’s the internet and you don’t know many people personally- it’s no reason to drop common civility even though you feel like a robot doing it. Oh, and if you’re drunk, maybe you shouldn’t be in vent, especially if you’re an officer who likes to hear your own voice.
This happened like two weeks ago and I debated quitting altogether. I didn’t play for oh, say, around a week or so and then I rolled a slew of (mostly Alliance) characters on two different servers. The highest I have is a lvl 16 goatadin, a level 14 belf priest, and a lvl 13 orc hunter. I also have various alliance paladins, hunters, mages, rogues, and the lvl 8 male human warlock I rolled to laugh at when he runs. The male human run is so corny. My lvl 36 troll hunter doesn’t count because she’s on a PvP server… the last thing I want is to be ganked when I’m trying to zone out. That’s a little more attention than I’m willing to pay right now. Heh.
I also wanted to announce that I will be out of it for a while. Sunday marks the one year anniversary of Dad’s passing and I’ve already been acting out as it is. I’ll answer all e-mail and whatnot um… soonish or something. I owe two people responses that I know of.
April 29th, 2008 at 4:46 pm
(Uncategorized)
I usually read a lot of message boards, etc. to keep my mind off of the IC and whatnot. Lately I’ve been seeing a trend in them where if one person does not agree with everyone else, they are attacked. I’m not talking about espousing unpopular ideas or hurtful ones, I’m mostly talking about respectfully disagreeing. I’ve also noticed, as I mentioned below, about the unusually clannish nature of some boards. I think I’m going to stop reading boards for a while. Where they used to be helpful, many of them have degraded to cliques and generally nasty people. I don’t really need that sort of thing right now.
I’m not going to unsubscribe from some yet but others I think I will let go. I think one of the problems is that if you have a need/problem/illness that is not mainstream, it encourages clannishness and isn’t conducive to welcoming late-comers/new people/people with their own minds. I haven’t commented on any boards for quite some time and now it looks like a waste of effort. I’ve been going to them mostly to see people worse off than myself anyway, to try and make myself feel better but instead I see people yelling at others because, for example, they have atypical responses to known IC trigger foods or simply because they define a belief differently from another person who posts to the boards. Schadenfraude probably isn’t such a great way to cope anyway. 
It just seems to me that people seem angrier than normal this spring and with my own anger to deal with, it’s not good to have a steady diet of other people’s anger to gorge myself on.
April 26th, 2008 at 10:37 pm
(Grieving, Uncategorized)
I joined a grief discussion board about a week ago and managed to post the entire story about Dad, which is what they asked you to do. I made a few comments trying to help on others’ posts but it’s like I’m not there to the members of the board at all. It’s like a circle jerk of grief and I’m not worthy enough to come yank my emotions out with them. The board looked to be the best, most compassionate one I could find but the people there are all regulars and personally, I don’t want to have to scrape at the door like a desperate cat caught out in the rain to get attention from these self-absorbed ninnies. That’s probably unfair to call them names, since grief makes people self-centered (HI!) but it makes me feel better to poke at them for shunning the outsider. I’m not banging my head against a wall with those people any more. In this day and age, a week is long enough to have read a post and commented if you gave a crap at all.
I’ve read that the second year after a loved one’s death is harder than the first because the protective numbness is gone. I can vouch for that… though it hasn’t been quite a year yet. I’m still in the middle of my first big “grief attack”. I’m all screwed up again. I cried until I gave myself sinus problems and frankly, if someone looked at me wrong today, I’d probably try to strangle them.
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